You are totally not alone in this.

I only have one really good friend in real life and one really good friend I met online a long time ago now. I feel like I can tell them a lot of things, but there's a lot I keep to myself too. I've never been one to share my thoughts or feelings, so therapy was and still is quite a challenge for me.

I've currently been having some issues with wanting more than what my T can give me. Like you said I really feel like this would be solved if I had someone in my life I was more comfortable with. In fact I'm 99% sure of this in my case because when I was with my ex I never felt this way. But what can you do? It sucks, but hopefully it won't always be like this. Also maybe you can find some comfort in the fact that there's a lot of people here in the same boat that are here for you. Including me.