I finally got to be seen by a physician today, I managed to get a walk in appointment this morning. It wasn't with the pdoc, but it went well. She agreed with me that the Ativan could have caused my problems. I had already lowered my dosage but she said to taper off, take half for a few days, then half it again. I'm still waiting on my pdoc, but I feel better now having some Dr input.

I finally got an appointment with my pdoc, they called today and let me have someone's cancelation tomorrow. I still saw my primary care today because I'm afraid the pdoc with reschedule me again.

Thank you for the replies it has helped immensely to know I'm not alone. It has helped to give me hope to find others who get it. My family has tried to be supportive, but I just feel like I let them down.