I've been dealing with bipolar most of my life on my own despite a diagnosis. In taking no mood medication but I am taking medication for anxiety.

I've been hypomanic recently and now I'm slipping down the slope. I'm ashamed to say that I've been taking strong medication just to allow me to function and live something of a life. I can't cope with this ride anymore without help. I just can't bring myself to tell others including my family how deep this runs, I've got so good at hiding it.