Ok been on vacation for a week tomorrow afternoon. I've started thinking about work already. I'm still really mad about how things went last week before my vacation. My wife says there is a distance between us. I don't think there is, but maybe my perceptions are wrong it happens. I wish I could give her everything she needs, but I can't. I'm not into sex or really physical contact really, but I feel like I have to be. It sucks. Right now I don't really care about anything. I'm just existing. Which I hate. Don't want deal with anything anymore.