I don't know how many of you remember me from my posts in the past, but I was going through some serious depression due to rape, and family and friendship issues. However, over time I've met new people and experienced new things. After being MIA for 2 months to my friends (mid-January -> mid-March of this year), I've had all that time to think about my life, and how much it sucked and how much I'd love to die at any time. But as March started coming around, I still couldn't help but start lightening up. Life didn't seem so bad. I mean sure I went through a lot and it's all made me stronger. You can't erase the past neither can you change it. So I learned to stop letting my past ruin my future. I can still be happy. And that's exactly what I made happen. It's up to you to rid your depression. If you want to be depressed then be depressed. Just know that you can control it if you want to. Life doesn't have to suck if you don't want it to. You can't just wish for things to get better, you have to get up and make them better. I'm just trying to express myself a little, maybe motivate someone out there. I want to thank everyone in this forum for helping me and being there for me like true friends though you didn't even know me.