Me and My Dog, I'm so sorry you're going through this. It sounds as if you're in a crisis stage right now and your thinking has turned hopeless. But there is help and hope for depression and suicidal thinking. I hope you will see a doctor as soon as possible, either in Vermont or when you're back in Florida. You could possibly benefit from medication and a referral to a therapist who can help you work through both your depression and your relationship problems.

In direct answer to your question ... yeah, I know people who have put their well-being, their finances, their families, their children, their freedom or their lives at risk because they felt so much in love and so emotionally dependent on another person that they couldn't think straight. It happens to a lot of people, both men and women.

I don't know what's wrong with your relationship, if she's a good companion or good influence on you or if you'd be better off if she left. But right now that's not really important (although it may feel like the most important thing to you at the moment.) What really counts is YOU. You're important whether you're in this relationship or not. But right now it sounds as if you're losing yourself and that's not a good thing.

I hope you will keep posting here. And that you will see a doctor as soon as you can for your depressive feelings, regardless of what happens in your relationship. Do it for yourself. Therapy can help you figure out what to do next and how to help yourself be the person you want to be. I hope you're able to fix yourself ... for yourself. It works better that way. Right now your motivation may be low. Please take this step as soon as you can so you can start recovering from the pain of this depression. You deserve it.

I wish you the best.