I went to work today, and I forgot how hard it was to be around people. I found myself escaping outside on my lunch break (just like old times). It was interesting because I got hugs from coworkers telling me how much they missed me. Missed me? During my worst moments, I believed that no one from there would care if I was gone, because I was feeling suicidal at the time. So to hear that I was missed from several people was nice to hear. But it also made me suspicious. I have a very difficult time accepting compliments. So much so, that I began to wonder as to the other person's motives. Something is wrong with me.

Anyway, it was just one day. I work again on Saturday. We'll see how it goes.