I believe that I may have some form of personality disorder. In the following post I will share some information about myself which I believe will illustrate the kind of man that I am and assist anyone willing to help me identify if I have some form of disorder.

I have many tendencies which would lead me to believe that I may be a sociopath. I currently have three beautiful girlfriends, each of them believes that they are the first and only girl that I have ever loved. Additionally there was one ugly, annoying girl who I was stringing along until a few days ago but she has become boring so I've started ignoring her. As long as I can remember I haven't really felt empathy or love towards others. While I can sympathize by imagining what their experiences are like- I just don't care what they go through.

When I was ten years old I first saw footage of someone being killed (it was a terrorist beheading) and did not really feel any emotional reaction. I have always enjoyed popularity and done well in school and work but occasionally as a child I would make mistakes in hiding my inner feelings. For instance, in middle school I hurt a classmate without thinking. When I was around five years old I threatened to hurt my father, which he misinterpreted as a joke.

However, I also have a (diagnosed) social anxiety disorder stemming from abuse that I suffered during elementary school. Though I have been able to overcome the majority of this anxiety I still freeze up when dealing with people in a position of authority or when being caught doing something wrong. I have been told that sociopaths do not feel anxiety. Does this mean I am not a sociopath? Do I actually have some form of disorder, or am I just not a good person?