Good to hear from you Jaybird. I'm glad you were able to work through your feelings with a therapist, it sounds intense. Yes, I was lucky my guy was sort of old school and took the time to talk. I live in the wilderness and it takes a day to get to the nearest town and then you have to stay overnight in a hotel to go home the next day so I don't have many resources and the nearest town has no psychiatrist anymore. So I'll have to get through it on my own but hearing from all of you has been enlightening and I don't feel so freakish anymore. Anyone else I know would get over such feelings or not have become so attached in the first place so I feel stoopid and childish and never tell anyone of my sadness. But, of course, these people are not bipolar and can regulate their emotions better so maybe I shouldn't compare.
Bedtime, good night.