Hi liltreeimp! Glad you could find something in my post that spoke to you. It's been so enriching for me, being able to connect with others here who are struggling with some of the same things I have struggled most with, and formerly felt totally alone and weird in. Especially with the effects of PTSD, which despite being my own biggest issue, has been under-diagnosed in my own life and thus under-treated as a result. I didn't understand for the longest time what was stopping me from reacting in ways I had previously, to the same stimuli, and it's remarkably difficult keeping myself in action in the ways that I want and always could before with relative effortlessness. I think some of the difficulty, for me, is that it feels so unnatural to have to accept on an internal level that these changes have occurred, the underlying physiological changes, in order to get to wherever my new starting point is located and is going to have to be. Because my old ones just don't work anymore.

That's where I am at right now.. very much an early stage, for me (despite the fact that I've had to achieve some serious traversing in order to get here), where I'm just trying to get myself to start from where I am, and be okay about it. (And I feel silly writing that.. sounds so simple! )

Welcome to the community!