You know, I'm really thinking I need to get back to charting, even when I can't "place" what state I'm in. Lately, med forgetting, sleep disruptions, and some IRL stuff that ranges from surreal to downright stressful are undoubtedly worth charting just for their own sakes. There has been this rather strange thought/compulsion that's cropped up. I KNOW it's odd (for sure it would not come to an untroubled mind), and haven't followed through, but WTH is up with it, you know? I think I remember when it started, but…. and see, there's the thing-- if it were written down, I could know for sure.

Very true. In fact, the above is a perfect example. No one else has the remotest clue I'm thinking this thing. It's just too weird to be thought of. Even if done, it's quite unlikely to be noticed. (The initial form most likely would, but I've dialed it back because I'd hate to have to explain it.) But if it were… it would bring a response of "WTF?!" for sure. (It's not dangerous or pervy or anything like that.) The general observable behavior indicating the feelings that seem to be driving might be discernible to another, but there's no way they'd extrapolate from that information to the same place I actually am. Not sure that even makes sense.

It's probably a good idea to expand the written comments area. They're useless for "at-a-glance" assessment, but damn, it's so hard to reduce things to numbers and stuff sometimes.