Thanks for your tips. I will try a few of them. I also have the doctors in 2 hours so I hope I can get some different medication too. I don't actually have any friends at the moment. The only friend I did have fell out with me about 4 months ago. But I don't feel bad about it I want to just be able to step foot out of the door and do things for myself first without talking myself out of it all the time. I would love to take up a new hobby but it would have to be flexible with my job and home life. My job sounds more fun than it is. I have a lot of pressure. I support huge companies with their IT issues and if something bad happens then I am also the incident management for it all. It's a lot of stress really and you are constantly on pins hoping that nothing like that occurs on your shift.