Hard about the past, harder about the present. I find it incredibly difficult to describe how I'm feeling because it's just so overwhelming and I never manage the right words. It makes sense in my head when I am experiencing these emotions but they magically disappear inside T's office and it's just so hard to recall them. In contrast, it's much easier for me to describe the abuse stuff in the past. My T does more talk therapy than psychoanalysis/digging old dirt though and it's almost always crisis intervention for me, probably because she's interested in making sure I'm in a good place mentally to take my upcoming exams, after which she doesn't have to see me anymore anyway.