Anger - or blind rage in our case - was a big deal! But that was before I started therapy. I think? Timelines are hard. I felt very unsafe and like I would be a danger to people. I truly was blind when the rage hit. But I eventually learned to pull back on it. I've never let it out in therapy - or really ever again except 4 rare moments (over the last 15 years).
It still scares me. Old T kept saying I still needed to deal with anger, and I was like "That's nice. Good luck". I don't want to deal with it. I don't want it to gain control again. I hope you are able to continue to make those choices in favor of safety for you and your therapist. Anger is important - I just don't know how to address it safely. I am told it can be a strength and a tool, but I don't trust that yet. Really good conversation!