Hey ombretwilight, sorry you're feeling so low and sad. Depression is so taxing and tiring. I know how hard it is to motivate yourself when down, but can I suggest you do something nice for yourself. Taking a walk, sitting in a garden with sunshine, buying and eating some of your favorite foods, whatever you like to do. My t tells me that sometimes it's good for you to do the opposite of how you feel (eg. if you feel like withdrawing, make sure you socialise). i use distraction a lot to get through. When it's really bad -like for weeks or months on end - I just focus on getting through each hour, and try to remind myself that I shouldn't make myself worse by feeling ashamed of how I feel. Be kind to yourself, do something nice for yourself and pm me if needed