I wish we (my husband and i) had more help. My mother in law spends her time taking care of her other grandkids who live an hour away in two different directions... every week. We live five minutes from her. She barely sees my child.
My t told me I needed a night off. Not just a couple hours, but a night where my husband and I could relax and I could get some relief from this anxiety. But when my husband asked her, she was just too busy. To be fair, it was last minute... and she doesn't really know anything about what I'm going through.
It brings up control issues from my past... and just triggers even more emotion.
I'm just having a hard time dealing with stuff like this when I'm already so edgy. I can't sleep well. My diet is a mess. Rather, my appetite for the bad outweighs the logic for good, wholesome food.
I just want to be able to focus on myself for a little bit. My child is almost 2, and has boundless energy. I hate to plunk in front of the tv. I'm trying really hard to be a good mother but I'm losing patience and I just need some help.
I know this isn't exactly PTSD related, but if I didn't have it, there wouldn't be a need to go on a mini personal retreat. :/