And I'm not a lesbian. I know that because the thought of touching another woman repulses me. I am definitely straight, and severely addicted to love with a man, just not sex. This has led to many relationships during my lifetime that have broken up due to my lack of sexual interest. After the romance, I am done.
I started watching porn at a very early age, and found ways to access it secretly for years. But I don't like touching myself either, so I don't masturbate. What happens is erotic images and reading makes me have an orgasm by just squeezing my legs together. It's almost an instinct to do that.
I'm wondering if by getting into porn at such a young age (12), have I taught myself that I just want orgasms without physical sex?
I'd really appreciate if anyone knows what might be going on with me, because it actually took me until I was 50 years old to realize that I had hated sex my whole life.
Now I'm obsessed with trying to find out if I am the only one who has this very strange problem.