I'm hearing you say, over and over again, so called street drugs are not helping but rather hurting you in many ways. I can't speak about doctor issued medication but those changed my like for the better. I personally say STOP playing these games with yourself before you loose your mind, and damage your brain. I read on the internet pot will indeed damage the brain. Your young, unlike me, and I went through same thing, but I believe not as heavy. I had to stop once I knew I was BP and street drugs, and alcohol would only destroy what my medication was intended for.