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Originally Posted by Patagonia
Yes this post has been extremely helpful! My H doesn't even kno what DID stands for so I don't talk to anyone about it & I'm extremely lonely.
My anger, my T says, is a protector & can also be a fire fighter to calm the rage. I don't think I ever wanto deal w/the rage or what the root of it is. I think it's too overwhelming.
This may sound strange, but wondered if anyone else has this. I can feel my parts take over according to the genre of music I play. Weird eh?! So sometimes I can purposely play a type of music in my ear phones while walking into an appt to set the appt up. Usually I feel it's being used as a defense mechanism esp if I kno I'm going to be asked to talk. Some music makes me go silent.
I have no idea if that made any sense.
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just a thought....maybe you and your therapist havent had a problem with or you are nto going through what ever that alter's job, purpose, reason for being is....
example many of my alters did not as you say "come out" during therapy. this wasnt because they were scared or uncomfortable with my therapist. it was because what we were discussing wasnt part of what those alters jobs, purpose reasons for being was.
example none of my intimate alters would come out during therapy unless my treatment provider and I were talking about sex. none of my alters that handled anxiety would come out during therapy unless I was feeling anxious/having a panic attach during therapy, the alters who's job purpose reason for being was to fight/stand up for me, the internal system would not "come out" unless my therapist and I were having a fight about something.
DID type alters are a very special kind of alters and whether they "come out" or not doesnt always depend upon whether the host or alters feel comfortable, or whether the treatment provider asks about them, calls them out or what ever along this line. .......most if not all times..... its about what causes the host to dissociate and that alters job, purpose reason for being...
one thing about DID is that alters can not come out if the host is not dissociated/triggered (positive or negative trigger) by something, thats why this disorder is called a dissociative disorder
so maybe like my internal system you are in the present moment/fully aware /not dissociating during therapy or you and your treatment provider are for lack of better words ...too comfortable...during therapy for these alters to come out.