Hi sinking, hey
respect for trying and pushing things just that little bit further!!
And I really hope it does go well for you

But sure there is a case for happiness being a state of mind, but IMO sometimes it takes a little (sometimes a lot!!) more. I'd be looking at circumstances, environment, experiences..........all that kind of thing too, sometimes. And for some people, meds are the only thing that's going to cut it, put them more on that road.
And you know sometimes people can "talk themselves into" being happy, but still be in an "environment" they really don't deserve to be in, an "environment" it would be good to change if they had the support/help to do that.
Anyway I'm sure we could write a book on that
but depression..........maybe it would be a good start to get a little (more?) help/support with that??
And perhaps throw in a little, putting yourself first?? A little less trying so hard to "please", "satisfy" other people, a little more making
your needs known?? That kind of thing??

Alison