I'm not quite clear what help you're looking for? If you could maybe ask a question so folks could try to answer specifically or tell us if you want sympathy for choosing to see someone that is seriously scaring a lot of us? Or something else?

I can't really speak for the group, of course, but I think the last thread is a good indication that the vast majority wouldn't want to help you feel comfortable ignoring your own instincts about this fast-moving, touch-hungry therapist. So much touch in such an intimate fashion so fast, and the disturbing elements on top of that interaction, his arousal, the grabbing, etc. etc. is just the biggest red flag I've encountered on this forum in a long time.

This is so concerning, much more like a screenplay for a thriller/drama than the reality of what therapy should be like.

I hope you'll listen to your fear.