DelusionDaily, I'm not sure you want to hear this, but I'm going to say it anyway. When you used to post earlier last year, I was frustrated with your dismissal of other's offers of support and care. You'd rage against your therapist (who seemed pretty unsupportive) and your psychiatrist (who you seemed to like but wanted more). Eventually both of them terminated you and you rocked on the edge of the abyss. I remember posting a few times and then giving up, thinking that you weren't able at that time to be insightful and cognizant of your own contribution to the problem. But guess what? YOU TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY PROVED ME WRONG!!!! The pain of their abandonment of you had a profound effect on you. You buckled down, dug deep and found the strength to pull yourself out of the sucking muck that pulled and tormented you psychologically. You have demonstrated an unbelievable ability to SEE yourself and change your thoughts and recognize and stabilize your emotions.

I get it that you are going through a very very difficult time right now. But rejecting the support and expertise of your current therapist isn't the way to go . . . even if you have to reach out and YELL to her that you need her assistance. Perhaps she's thinking that you've got the skills, that they are incorporated into your psyche. But if they aren't, that's okay. Let her know. Tell her in no uncertain terms that this is one of those expected rough patches in one's healing that indicates that you need the same exact support and encouragement you got as a brand new client. You have to let her know very clearly that she isn't hearing how needy you are right now . . . and that neediness isn't wrong. It's simply what you need right now. I hope you're able to see that this too will pass and you will again be on your wonderful path of healing to a better and more rewarding life experience. You deserve it!