I find it difficult to offer something helpful to your situation because you don't go into more details about your problems. I am only getting a glimpse of things. I don't know where you are or how old are you or what kind of problems you've had or where you live or if you have any friends or family that can come with you for therapy or a medical doctor you can talk, etc. I understand you say your English is not good but in order to get better more specific help, you need to explain more.

You made a thread about changing therapist and the new therapist was aroused and you accidentally touched him there and when he hugged you, and now this about the therapist (same one?) grabbing your hands off the couch in a very difficult session. Why did he do that? Was he worried about you damaging the couch? Was he trying to hug you in a sexual way? Were you out of control?

Please provide context so you can get better help and suggestions. Thank you.