I'm so glad you read this, DelusionDaily! I was so sad when I saw that you had deleted your posts right before I posted mine. Guess I took too long to write the dang thing Everything I wrote is exactly how I thought. You have made so many gains. It isn't about you feeling like "hurting" yourself right now. That is totally understandable. You're in pain and the skills you have learned seem far away and useless. . . .they aren't but that's how you feel right now. You just need a tune up with your wonderful therapist. She needs to understand that the skills aren't gone, they have just gone underground in response to the new trauma that you are facing. Talk to her. Be frank and open. Once she understands, she will be able to give you the support and encouragement you need right now. I sure know that I slip and stumble often. I've just learned that when that happens I have to yell a little bit louder because my support people think I'm smarter than I am.

Do not give up! You've come to far!