Thank you Alison, i really like the way you talk and what you have to say.

i know its wrong to always give in and please others, because i can FEEL it is wrong, and i resent that, but its the only way to live kind of peacefully.

and as for expressing my thoughts, feelings and needs, unortunately this cant be done. they treat me and talk with me as if i was 5. they say they dont understand my way of thinking and feeling, that what i feel and think is wrong, childish and selfish, and one day i'll "understand" they are right.

i admit i see things a little differently from a standard adult, but im not crazy as they think. im just not them. im just me.

i guess finding my own place to live would help, but i cant afford it. im stuck here with them.

anyway, im so sick of this all, they are killing me. im going to protest fast. i have never done this before but i feel its the only way i can show them what they're doing to me. my words mean nothing to them. i guess its better than a sui attempt.

thank you for your support.