Yes, you're not wasting anyone's time at all.
I understand the...need for approval maybe? Or love, acceptance? That is keeping you with this t. And I really get the confusion around attachment, intimacy and sexual feelings. It's often very difficult to work out which feeling is which, and if you need love and intimacy you might take sexual feelings instead, especially if it is disguised as care.
I feel like it's possible that your t is being very clever here, and using your vulnerability and need for love as a way to get his own ends met (literally!)
So, maybe a good plan might be...tell this t that you can't come in for a week, because you have to go somewhere etc. make another appt with him for a week or two if that will make you feel better, and stop him pestering.
Then, go see another t. Maybe a female? Tell her about this t, and take her advice. That way, you will feel supported, and hopefully know that you will be getting the intimacy you need from another t, in an appropriate boundaries way.
When you feel strong enough, stop seeing current t. You don't need to worry about his feelings, or explain yourself, and maybe your new t can support you with what to say etc.
Good luck xxxxx