I'm just coming to the end of a six week period of my t being away. I too was terrified of the idea of going so long without her but, while it's been tough at times, I managed to get through it. I did take my t up on the offer to see a colleague while she was away, and that helped. I think Leah's set out a good framework for you and your t to build on in the next couple of months. Christmas holidays are a hard time for many of us, make sure you take time to look after yourself.