*******TW for talk of SA and sex in general*******
I had T session yesterday, and it was unexpectedly a very heavy session. We started off talking about how I had to be in the same room as my abuser without any warning on Thursday. Then, t started asking me questions about the abuse that happen at the hands of this individual, and said we have talked about the rape a lot, but not this...ugh, was not expecting it. However, I think I was ready to talk about it a little more. Which lead into a discussion about sex/Intimacy in my life now.. When T claimed my view on sex is kind of cynical and not as rational as I thought it was. I was surprised by that. At first, I was surprised that I have speny most of my adult life with this view and it is not rational.. But then, as time went on.. I am left at.. who is T to proclaim that my view is cynical and not rational.. T strikes me as kind of romantic type and of course sex is going to be about intimacy, being close to his wife, etc.. I see it as more of a we use each other kind of tool and not as a way to be close. Whose to say my T has the more healthier view of sex than me? Aren't they both just opinions anyways?
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