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i wish... that the feelings weren't so very intense. the intensity makes it hard.

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So, so f***ing hard. I know. Congratulations on making it through the month. I hope we both have great sessions tomorrow. I like what you said in response to one of my posts, about how you were trying to reciprocate feelings for your T... you know, seeing him as human, feeling excitement for him. That is a big, big step. Remember that. I am lost in the wonder of how to hold multiple feelings for someone all at the same time. I'm sure you will have so much to say tomorrow. Or nothing at all, haha. I say that because if it has been awhile since I have seen him, my mind will be brimming over with stuff. He will say, "So what's been going on?" My answer-- "nothing." It takes me awhile to get started.