***BRIEF TRIGGER WARNING***

A lot of people on here are talking about loving their T. I dont love my T, neither do I love my parents, friends, family, or myself for that matter. I see love around me all the time but I don't know what it is.
I sure miss my T and pine for her, but it feels like i gave up on the love thing a long time ago. I just accepted love was not for me. It was like punishing myself.

I have a sexual abuse/rape history from the age of 3 till 11. I'm worried that really messed my brain up and i truly am incapable of love.