I had a change in plans this weekend so I could go to my session last night...so I texted 2 hours before to see if she had an opening still..which was a big step for me to ask and she said to come in...

I talked about all my concerns about prolonged exposure therapy and my personal weird memory issues and how all of that would be handled....I had already read the book for therapist all about it so I was asking very specific things...

I decided to go through with it....it will be about 3 to 4 weeks preparing for it... 3 to 4 weeks of things getting a lot worse.. And then improvement...

Nothing is going to be different unless I start doing things different ...

Personally I feel... relieved to have made the decision... hope that things can be different... and scared to death of the process.

(I know not everyone agrees with this type of therapy but hope when I am low you will still be around to support me)