Almeda, I am seriously so proud of you for getting to what looks like the core of a lot of what's going on.... for being brave enough to admit this, and spending the time to better yourself. I love the fact that you wrote a letter to your T, and you want to read him parts of it. I am thinking of doing this as well. Sometimes I bring in my journal, but the whole idea of a letter seems more powerful-- because it's meant to be for him. I agree with what you said... it seems that you are a point at this moment, in which you have the opportunity to make the next session extremely profound. That's a beautiful and scary feeling-- when stuff is just spilling over and it's time to release. If it is time for you, go for it.