Hey kaylaurynn,

Have you tried fish oil/omega 3 yet? Have you researched nutrition?

Have you talked to your doctor about this? What meds are you on and what dosages? Some meds can have suicidal thoughts as a side effect. Research your meds, there's a lot of info online.

Do you stay up long behind the computer? (That's what I used to do and couldn't sleep then) Computer off at least 2 hours before sleep. More than 4 or 5 hours computer time a day can cause depression - there has been a study in Japan (TV and phones can be a problem too, if too long). Drink soda/Coca Cola or coffee or other drinks with caffeine?

For me, it was sometimes helpful to write down worries in a journal, or write online on forums or blogs. Can you text to friends if unable to socialize in RL? It's good to be connected to people.

I'm currently researching other views of 'schizophrenia/psychosis' too, the shaman model where it says it can be a sign of 'spiritual awakening' etc. There's a thread about it in the schizophrenia/psychosis subforum.

I know it sounds horrible at first, all these diagnoses... People have recovered from them though and this makes me hopeful for you too!