Trigger SI

Mast, I guess we all have areas where we feel we don't operate like 'normal' people. Sometimes, with my lovely friends whom I love a lot, I feel like I'm from another planet. Like, none of them seem to throw things around, or self harm when they hear random noises, or wake up crying and sleepwalking.
But I bet they all have their own little bit of not normalness. The friends I'm closest to, I know that they do. And you identify one of yours is sex, and that's not uncommon. At the moment, I'm really struggling to 'get there' iykwim, and have had a horrible, sick realisation that when I SI it is a sexual feeling....so although I do enjoy sex with my h, it's not all normal, by any means. Xxxxx