I don't know why, but reading other peoples self-harm, triggers me to want to self harm myself. I generally stay away from the forum for that reason sometimes, but I'm almost drawn to it because I want to read how other people handle it or their complications.

Just the thought of leaving a scar on my skin gives me a feeling of excitement and heavy urges. I want to cut myself so badly, but I know it's not good for my health.

I want to read and help other people with self-harm, but I can't get over the feeling, it comes so easy, just reading the titles trigger me. Why are my urges so strong?

If I try to distract myself or try to forget, it gets worse. How can I get my mind off the subject, before I do anything to get my 'fix'?