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Feeling depressed after a psychosis is very common. Sometimes it comes with suicidal thoughts and loss of emotions.
When I recovered from my psychosis I got depressed. I longed for it to return because it filled the big void I had at the time. It gave me purpose. It was a distraction from reality. At the time I had no job and high school diploma. Life and my future felt so bleak. Psychosis made it a lot more tolerable.
Psychosis changes you. It leaves a mark even after recovery. The 'hidden' cognitive problems and emotional flattening make it so much harder to relate to others and function in the world. It is isolating. Once I realized the full extent of my problems it contributed to the depression.
What helped me get through was acknowledging my 'disability' and working with it rather than fighting it. Since I had a very unique perspective of the world and experience that no one else had it gave me permission to embrace who I am. Now I am quirky Didgee.
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Dx: Didgee Disorder
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