Well, I'm down again! Can't seem to switch cycles for the life of me! I absolutely have NOTHING to work with or build on. I'm desperately trying (unsuccessfully) to avoid ALL HUMAN CONTACT. I don't want to see anyone or hear anyone's voice! But of course, I'm getting just the opposite! People calling repeatedly, running in and out of the house, in my face constantly, pushing me ever closer to the edge!! I wish I knew how to force mania to come! I feel SO dead inside that it doesn't seem possible to still be physically alive.