thanks jinny.... i'm also sorry your mother didn't protect you.... what happened to me wasn't that severe in a physical sense..... but for 20 years i blamed myself and wished i hadn't even told anyone. i'm only just now learning to allow myself to be angry. yes, love/hate, confusion, rejection, abandonment..... and i would add betrayal to those. that's the biggest. that a man who told me every day that he loved me could betray me, his "baby", like that...... thats the worst.

(((((((jinny))))))))