It seems like it and my boyfriend told me one time that "we haven't grown apart". Next year, will be 10 yrs for us. I know he would be devastated if we broke up, came close to breaking up with him 2 times in the past and also told him long ago how I was unhappy and I wanted a change in our relationship. Back then, he said he was trying I said try harder! He had a job one time and told me he was gonna get us an apartment and just quit that job later on. I was always spending my lack of money on him!

The other problem is I don't have any friends/support group that I can lean back on just one friend and one from high school but don't see her that much. I don't have much of a social life that I want since I am working, looking for a 2nd job, etc. I just don't want to hurt my boyfriend ya know? My life wasn't that great either and I am still trying to improve 18 yrs of no life skills to help me move further. I know it's a lot of sorting out feelings and being serious, but it is tearing me apart every time I think about it.