The med roller coaster is a nightmare. I have side effects to almost everything. I was manic/mixed for 6 months. Now I'm "stable" but bored and depressed and generally apathetic. I don't know what to do. I lived without meds for 6 years until last June when I thought going back on them seemed appropriate. Shortly after the D.I.D. diagnosis, I went off of them again for about a month or two and quickly spiraled downward. So, I went back on them and had side effects to every mood stabilizer . Even now, but I'm not vibrating off the walls and am mostly more functional, but like I said, very depressed, bored, and apathetic. I can't go on this way much longer than did the other. Any suggestions? Or is this just all part of D.I.D. I have many comorbid diagnosis including bi-polar and ADHD.