It sounds like you are in a very, very sad and lonely place. I would hope that your therapist would help you process your feelings of shame and offer you her assurance that no matter what happens, she knows that you are not bad nor did you cause the abuse or any other traumas that have happened to you. I understand the pain of being rejected by what feels like everyone around me. The pain is almost unbearable. I'm so sorry you are suffering so much today.

JD