Partless, moms are the ones we love and the ones who drive us nuts! I spent my childhood and early teens being embarrassed of my mom, my late teens and early adulthood feeling guilty for my earlier feelings, and into my 30's being her caretaker until she died.

Your feelings are your own, and you have a right to feel them, no matter how irrational or unkind. You do love your mom, and you do hate the things she has done to hurt you. What's wrong with that?

I'm sorry you're hurting!