Maybe one last thing I would say on this topic. Don't feel bad that you can't understand what normal people understand. If like me you have no and never had "in person live emotional support" rely on the professionals to clarify your misunderstandings. They see the world like a normal person and they will explain. I have a dog and I had to have a professional dog trainer explain things. She looked at me weird but I blew it off. I guess to a normal person my questions were dumb but I have accepted that I will get weird looks and statements when I ask. I cry a lot cuz it hurts to see how much I don't understand but this is the part ofBPD you learn to live with tearful but you radically endure that this is your life. Like it or not doesn't matter.