If I had a different upbringing and it didn't end up with me becoming insecure, having social anxiety and having PTSD I think I would currently much further in my life. I always wanted to go to university and become something great like a vet. My mother was never disencouraging (I don't know if that's a word or not) about anything I wanted to do, even though we were poor, so I never had the idea in my head that I couldn't do something when I grew up, or that money was ever going to be a limit for me to do something.
But after being bullied in school, my mothers drinking and drug use, being abused, etc., my enthusiasm for things has gone down, I feel held back in where I could be, and my anxiety and insecurity about myself means I can't find the courage to do a lot of the things I have wanted.