second time writing this i hope it doesnt post twice....basically no im not afraid of being thought of as a freak. Im a private person and think it is no ones business but my own. There is still a definite stigma in social and business/job world. I cannot seeing letting people know helping me i can only see the downside for me and my family.....i wrote it more concisely this time so im glad it didnt post the first time......