Thank you all so very much!!! I am tearing up (lol- like it takes much!) reading all of your messages of support.

I feel bad for my husband- I feel like deserves a better wife.

As for therapy, I have only recently begun again and our last session brought up horrible memories and then I couldn't get in for another 4 weeks. Wondering if those memories got hold of me without me realizing it and this is what I am left with. It's kind of like I was told to walk out on the plank and then have to wait there for a month. I will call tomorrow and try to get in sooner