At points during the day I feel "normal", like right now I am ok. I think thank goodness I am back to normal and this episode has passed...and then it comes slamming back. This has been happening every day for a few weeks. My whole day is a roller coaster. These moments of feeling fine make me think I am faking and then I feel guilty for faking and then I am crying on the bathroom floor and know it is for real and then I am fine again and think it's all in my head that I making this up. ugh