Frankbtl -

I'm over 50. I've struggled all my life, overcoming fear of people, to be able to function with them. No one wants to be my friend. No one can connect with me. I have one friend, my husband, who is even more defective with people than I am. Yes, I can talk relatively superficially with people on here or elsewhere, but my point was that counselling is useless to me because connecting with a counsellor is impossible for the same reason connecting with anyone else is impossible. All this people struggle has been necessary, but ultimately not anything I am excited about in life.

There is no path ahead for me. That's all I'm saying. The things I cared about are crushed in the name of global progress/development. I went back to school to study science in hope of greater understanding of how to make change. I have learned only that it is not possible for me to make a difference, degree or no degree. So be it. I just wanted to say where I am at, given my pain and sadness around it. Sorry to trouble anyone.