Hi starrysky, it sounds like things are really tough for you right now I'm sorry
But well done on trying to push for a change by planning on a medication review. Sometimes it can take plenty of "trial and error" in finding the right medication, but that doesn't mean that it isn't out there.
And as for no-one caring............maybe it's more that the people in your life don't really understand/need a bit more insight if you could try to give them that, maybe they just don't know what to say/do, maybe the depression has numbed you a bit to how they may really feel??
But not knowing them/your situation, what I can say, is that you are going to find plenty of understanding people on here who are going to get how hard it is for you, who are going to care.
So it is really good that you're sharing with us, it can be so much worse/harder to feel alone in the way you're feeling. So make yourself at home, and share as much as you want.
And welcome to PC!!!

Alison