Having seen many ppl that start to drink and use to self medicate and then not be able to stop, I suggest trying local council on drug abuse. There is monies to help with tx. If you can work on the drinking and the depression thing could get better. I can assure you of one thing though, keep using it not going to get better. I AM So SORRY to sound like a jerk, I have seen it many times. I recently lost two ppl to their depression and dring or drugs. One (accidentally killed sell), other pretty much blatant. This makes me sad and now very depressed as well. Sorry have to go.